Well. Taxes. You guys 
Taxes have a way of having me question my intelligence 
I just spent the last 2 hours on the phone with local and federal governments figuring out some tax stuff – yes, ’tis the season! And let me tell you…..
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Thank goodness for helpful people at the EDD and IRS who can help me make sense of things that cause my eyes to glaze over 
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Thank goodness for people in my life who can speak positive words over me that I can remember when days like this happen and I’m questioning my intelligence 
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Thank goodness for (finally) learning the lesson of ASKING FOR SUPPORT when there’s something I’m struggling with or not understanding.
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If there is ANYTHING you’re struggling with, please please please reach out for support. I used to spin out of control internally when I was struggling because I thought I needed to be put together for everyone all the time. I used to think that I couldn’t show up to anyone with an issue, because I was there to support them. I really used to believe that I should just be able to “figure it out” and at the time, that translated to me living in complete frustration because I didn’t know what I was doing, or how to get help with any of my problems, so I carried the weight all by myself, and I was drowning in it. “Old Susan” would have crumbled in a ball on the floor in frustration trying to figure out how to fill out all of this tax paperwork instead of simply calling in to request support. And here’s the kicker – THANK GOODNESS I DID because as it turns out, something was filed incorrectly, and ALL of that paperwork was completely UNNECESSARY!!! It would have been a HUGE waste of time and energy!!
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I beg you – if there is ANYTHING you’re struggling with, ask for help. People WANT to help. People are willing, able, and desiring to support you! Do NOT waste time (as I have in the past) trying to spin your wheels on something that’s not in your wheelhouse! Trust me. It’s way less painful to ask for help than it is to spin yourself out of emotional control trying to go it alone.
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ASK. FOR. HELP. It doesn’t mean you’re stupid, incapable, incompetent, dumb, less than, or any of the other negative words we allow ourselves to believe. It means you’re efficient, open, thoughtful enough to allow others to experience the joy of supporting you, and intelligent!! I lived in the former belief for years, and it doesn’t work. Choose the latter 
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“New Susan” over and out.
’tis the season…to ask for help
