Sucker punched (again)

 He sucker punched me (again) and I knew at that moment, I had yet another battle ahead of me.
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 This wasn’t the first time we’d gotten into it, but I darn sure wanted it to be the last. I was tired, beat down, and completely broken-hearted.
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 Now, I’m a tough girl (even with my heels), but it’s like he could sense a weakness I didn’t know about, and he was keen to play on it and pour salt in my wound.
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He was taunting me, with every beating, and whispering things like:
“No one will ever want you.”
“You’re nobody’s first choice.”
“You’re a waste of his time.”
“There’s nothing you can do to keep a man. You’re not who they want.”
“If you would have given your body, he might have stuck around.”
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He was right though. That’d been my continued experience. I really believed those things – and I had evidence to back it all up.
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 I’m sure you can imagine the defeat that was sinking in, especially since this had happened before….multiple times before. In a seemingly obvious pattern.
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 We date. He loses interest. He finds another girl, quickly (who’s cute, tiny, and blonde). They get married. I’m left single. Repeat.
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 Seems I was useful to them for practice in the “pre season” but wasn’t who they actually wanted in the championship round with them.
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#StoryOfMyLife
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 Or, at least it USED to be 
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It’s taken years of very intentional mindset work to overcome all of this incessant emotional abuse, turmoil, and pain. And lots of prayers against the abusive jerk (aka Satan ) who continues to throw punches and battle against me.
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 Not today, Satan  I’m not here for it anymore. I’m so thankful I know the truth of God’s promises to me  and not one of them was found in your obnoxious taunts. You tricky, deceptive, little liar!
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#FreakingDevil NOPE. I refuse to believe your lies, and with each passing day my certainty grows that God has a phenomenal man for me  a man who will cherish me (for me, not my body), who will want to go all the way to the championship with me (not the cute, tiny blonde). A man who will encourage me to continue to stand up against you and your wily attacks