Ā He sucker punched me (again) and I knew at that moment, I had yet another battle ahead of me.
.ļøĀ This wasnāt the first time weād gotten into it, but I darn sure wanted it to be the last. I was tired, beat down, and completely broken-hearted.
.Ā Now, Iām a tough girl (even with my heels), but itās like he could sense a weakness I didnāt know about, and he was keen to play on it and pour salt in my wound.
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He was taunting me, with every beating, and whispering things like:āNo one will ever want you.ā
āYouāre nobodyās first choice.ā
āYouāre a waste of his time.ā
āThereās nothing you can do to keep a man. Youāre not who they want.ā
āIf you would have given your body, he might have stuck around.ā
.He was right though. Thatād been my continued experience. I really believed those things – and I had evidence to back it all up.
.Ā Iām sure you can imagine the defeat that was sinking in, especially since this had happened beforeā¦.multiple times before. In a seemingly obvious pattern.
.Ā We date. He loses interest. He finds another girl, quickly (whoās cute, tiny, and blonde). They get married. Iām left single. Repeat.
.Ā Seems I was useful to them for practice in the āpre seasonā but wasnāt who they actually wanted in the championship round with them.
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#StoryOfMyLife
.Ā Or, at least it USED to beĀ
.Itās taken years of very intentional mindset work to overcome all of this incessant emotional abuse, turmoil, and pain. And lots of prayers against the abusive jerk (aka SatanĀ
) who continues to throw punches and battle against me.
.Ā Not today, SatanĀ
Ā Iām not here for it anymore. Iām so thankful I know the truth of Godās promises to meĀ
Ā and not one of them was found in your obnoxious taunts. You tricky, deceptive, little liar!
.#FreakingDevilĀ NOPE. I refuse to believe your lies, and with each passing day my certainty grows that God has a phenomenal man for meĀ
Ā a man who will cherish me (for me, not my body), who will want to go all the way to the championship with me (not the cute, tiny blonde). A man who will encourage me to continue to stand up against you and your wily attacksĀ
Sucker punched (again)
