Ā For YEARS Iāve had people tell me āHeās right around the corner.ā “He’s on his way toĀ you right now!” āI can see it happening, and itās going to happen SOON!ā
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Frequently. Often. Usually at least once per weekĀ
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Hereās the thing – itās partly encouraging (because, hi! Iām SO EXCITED!!) and itās partly discouraging (because, hi! Itās been YEARS and it still hasnāt happened!!). Whoās to say what āsoonā translates to, anyway? Certainly my definition isnāt lining up with all of these predictionsĀ
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Iām sure you can relate! Like, you appreciate people trying to encourage you, and at the same time it reminds you of what is not yet in your reality – something (or someone) that youāre so endearingly anticipatingĀ /
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Hereās what came up for me today on a call with someone I respect, who kept patiently asking questions and presenting things back to me in a new light (and stick with me, because I promise itās all related)!
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REALIZATION: Iāve been using my recent focus on dialing in my nutrition/fitness as a āconvenient distractionā (thanks for that verbiage,Ā James Williams) from what I KNOW I WANT TO BE PUTTING MY ATTENTION AND ENERGY TOWARDS, which is myĀ Ā book (Abundant Wife: Wisdom from 1,000 years of Marriage).
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The WHY for the book is a vision from GodĀ Ā to positively impact and bring health back to marriages, and to prepare ladies to step into marriage as an Abundant Wife from the get go. Beautiful, right?! I think so, too. And Iām honored that God gave me the idea and the resources to bring this to the world.
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That said, the why has been recently convoluted by getting tied to bringing my husband inĀ Ā I canāt tell you how many people say unprompted, that this book will bring my husband in. That this is a powerful part of our story of coming together.
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While I do believe it will be part of our story, what that caused was a subconscious resistance to working on the book because the focus changed and got selfish. The motivation had been tainted because I donāt want to manipulate meeting my husband. I donāt want to do A just to cause B. Therefore, āAā was getting zero attentionĀ
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I have more to say on this, but for todayās post, Iām gonna leave it hereā¦
.Allow yourself to get uncomfortable and dive into why that is! My conversation today brought something to the light thatās been subtly sabotaging me for MONTHS! It helped connect these dots for me, and we got clear on what it looks like for me to work through this resistance.
.Ā What are you resisting? And, more importantly, WHY are you *really* resisting it?
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As I’m being challenged in this right now, I’d love to invite you along.
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Youāre worth finding the answerĀ
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P.S. Be on theĀ Ā lookout for Part 2, coming soonĀ
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Edited to add Part 2 here.
He’s right around the corner, Part 1
