For YEARS I’ve had people tell me “He’s right around the corner.” “He’s on his way to you right now!” “I can see it happening, and it’s going to happen SOON!”
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Frequently. Often. Usually at least once per week 
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Here’s the thing – it’s partly encouraging (because, hi! I’m SO EXCITED!!) and it’s partly discouraging (because, hi! It’s been YEARS and it still hasn’t happened!!). Who’s to say what “soon” translates to, anyway? Certainly my definition isn’t lining up with all of these predictions 
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I’m sure you can relate! Like, you appreciate people trying to encourage you, and at the same time it reminds you of what is not yet in your reality – something (or someone) that you’re so endearingly anticipating 
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Here’s what came up for me today on a call with someone I respect, who kept patiently asking questions and presenting things back to me in a new light (and stick with me, because I promise it’s all related)!
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REALIZATION: I’ve been using my recent focus on dialing in my nutrition/fitness as a “convenient distraction” (thanks for that verbiage, James Williams) from what I KNOW I WANT TO BE PUTTING MY ATTENTION AND ENERGY TOWARDS, which is my 
book (Abundant Wife: Wisdom from 1,000 years of Marriage).
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The WHY for the book is a vision from God 
to positively impact and bring health back to marriages, and to prepare ladies to step into marriage as an Abundant Wife from the get go. Beautiful, right?! I think so, too. And I’m honored that God gave me the idea and the resources to bring this to the world.
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That said, the why has been recently convoluted by getting tied to bringing my husband in 
I can’t tell you how many people say unprompted, that this book will bring my husband in. That this is a powerful part of our story of coming together.
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While I do believe it will be part of our story, what that caused was a subconscious resistance to working on the book because the focus changed and got selfish. The motivation had been tainted because I don’t want to manipulate meeting my husband. I don’t want to do A just to cause B. Therefore, “A” was getting zero attention 
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I have more to say on this, but for today’s post, I’m gonna leave it here…
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Allow yourself to get uncomfortable and dive into why that is! My conversation today brought something to the light that’s been subtly sabotaging me for MONTHS! It helped connect these dots for me, and we got clear on what it looks like for me to work through this resistance.
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What are you resisting? And, more importantly, WHY are you *really* resisting it?
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As I’m being challenged in this right now, I’d love to invite you along.
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You’re worth finding the answer 
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P.S. Be on the 
lookout for Part 2, coming soon 
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Edited to add Part 2 here.
He’s right around the corner, Part 1
